We are, without a doubt, living in a crazy time.
I’m currently in New Orleans helping my fiancee heal from major surgery. We are staying in lodging with several chemotherapy patients (she is not one of them; this surgery was preventive). There’s nothing like being among people with compromised immune systems during a pandemic to make you wonder if you’re doing enough to stop the spread of disease!
It has been hard for me. Taking care of someone you love after major surgery is already tough enough. Having a world-changing pandemic on top of it doesn’t make things any easier.
I’m doing my best to keep steady during this whole thing, and you can too.
I woke up early this morning and got out on the trail across the street and went for a walk. It overlooked the Mississippi River, and I got to see the sunrise. Nature is still out there, it’s still beautiful, and we can still be grateful for it.
I have started meditating again. Whenever I need quiet, I simply close my eyes wherever I am and let whatever comes up come up. It doesn’t have to be for a predetermined length of time.
If you feel more comfortable setting a timer, then set it for ten minutes. Or five. Or two. Practicing at all is what’s most important.
I’ve been doing my best to eat nutritious food. We did go to Trader Joe’s at the beginning of our stay, and most of the shelves were wiped out. We picked up as many healthy things as we could, including pre-hardboiled eggs, yogurts, and dried broccoli florets.
I’m going to try and do more things that make me feel alive and connected with the world and with a higher power and order of things that’s bigger than me.
This whole thing is certainly making my trauma and PTSD symptoms flare up. It is not easy. But I have been doing the work for the past five years that allows me to stand here today and know that I will be ok.
I just need to tap into the work that I’ve done and start living it. Which is what this blog is for. Hopefully it inspires you to do the same.
Stay steady, my friends. Though let whatever comes up come up. It’s scary, and that’s ok.