I’ve come to a decision, which was tough to make because of how badly I wanted this. I took the leap last June to go into full-time freelancing. I have now learned how incredibly tough it is to turn it into a business that will sustain me financially. I haven’t put in nearly enough of the time that it will require, and I don’t have nearly enough money to last that long.
So, I’m going to go get a full time job and keep working towards my dream as a side hustle.
Some really amazing things have happened over the last three months:
I took a real, solid stand for my career for the first time in my life.
I became a consultant for an organization and wound up on their vendor list, where I still provide value to them as a WordPress consultant.
I threw myself into the mix at networking events and connected with people, many times effortlessly.
I sold people on what I was doing, and people hired me for things. They hired me and paid me to be a developer, consultant, marketing person, etc.
I pushed past fear and insecurity and did web development work for people. Sometimes I soared, sometimes I succeeded, other times I got in way over my head and got stuck.
I shared my passion with people, and they responded in-kind by sharing my work with others and giving me support and encouragement.
I believed in myself and got other people to believe in me too.
Whenever I sold myself to people and got them to believe in me, it came from a completely sincere place. If you’re a fraud, then you’ll eventually get sniffed out. People bought into me because I’m as real as it gets. Even though my skills weren’t always enough, my effort and sincerity in wanting to get the job done was always there.
It really all comes down to getting enough clients to have a sustainable business. It will take a good long time to get that number of clients and have enough billable work to sustain me. I didn’t really know any of this going in, and so like most things, I learned it the hard way 🙂
So, now it’s time for me to find a full-time job someplace as a marketing coordinator/specialist/whatever you want to call it. I can immediately contribute as someone who has tons of experience being a webmaster/writer/social media person, and I’ll be able to hustle for web development clients on the side still chasing after that nonprofit market.
The dream lives. Time to keep flying.